|
"Here's to Us"Written By: Presser Pairings : 1x2 Disclaimer : Gundam Wing characters aren't mine Rating : PG-13 except for part 12 which is NC-17 Warnings : AU, some sap, some fluff, some angst. Spoilers: None Feedback : Yes please!
"Here's to Us" ~ 12 ~ As Duo pulled into the driveway of his house, Heero once again wiped the inside of the windshield with his sleeve. "Sorry." "For what? Steamin' up my windows?" Duo smiled broadly. Heero tucked his chin against his chest and looked up at his eyebrows. "Aw, you're so damn cute when you blush, Heero!" "Shut up," Heero said, smiling. Duo turned off the engine as the garage door closed. Both men had reason to be happy. Heero, introverted, shy, a stutterer, had always assumed that he'd live alone his whole life. "Who'd want someone like me?" was a question that flitted through his mind when he allowed himself to think about relationships, which was now less often than in his college days. Duo had tried so many times to find a person he could love that he had gradually become convinced that the 'someone' he wanted so much just didn't exist. Neither man had any hopes for more than a good friendship, yet both wanted more, even wished for more in their relationship. Neither could have foreseen that the simple mishap in the car before dinner would change everything. "Want another kiss before we go in?" Heero nodded. They leaned together and kissed as they had in the parking lot in front of Torino's: Heero tentatively, still unsure of what he was doing; Duo tenderly, trying to hold back. Duo broke the kiss first, taking a deep breath. Heero leaned forward, trying to hold on to the kiss. Duo chuckled softly. "Anxious are we?" "Shut up." "You keep saying that. You saying you don't like the sound of my voice?" "I'm saying I like the taste of your lips better." Duo leaned back toward Heero and kissed him lightly on the lips and then opened his door. "Let's go inside." * * * Coats were dropped in a kitchen chair, shoes were kicked off on the carpet in the living room. Duo took Heero's hand and led him to the couch. Standing there, he put his arms around Heero and pulled him close. Heero misunderstood the action and tilted his head back to receive another kiss, but Duo had intended to pull his head to his shoulder. Their chins crashed together. "Ow!" "Ow!" They both pulled back and grabbed their chins, rubbing the pain away. "Sorry," they both said at the same time. Laughter, smiles. "I just want to hold you for a moment. Okay?" Heero nodded. Duo once again put his arms around Heero, who this time let Duo pull him close and gently guide his head to his shoulder. Duo's right arm joined his left in wrapping tenderly around Heero's arms and back. "Hmm...this feels good." "Uh huh." The thrill of contact sent warm vibrations through them both. After a moment, Heero gently pushed away from Duo, who relaxed his arms. An unspoken question in his eyes was answered by Heero. "Let's sit down." They sat. Heero took both of Duo's hands in his. "This is so much more than I would ever have believed possible." He paused. "But?" "No 'buts.' I'm happy. Happier than I've ever been." "I'm happy, too." "Will - will you make love to me?" Duo's eyes widened, his mouth dropped open. He pulled his hands away from Heero's. "Heero, I -" "No, listen. I know I don't have any experience when it comes to love. I never thought I ever would. But I've known for a while that you're the one for me, Duo. I was afraid to say anything, mostly because I didn't want to break the spell. It was comforting to pretend without having to know for sure. And I was sure that the answer would be 'no' if I asked the question. Oh, I'm messing this up." "Relax. Take a breath and say what you need to say." Heero took a breath and started again. "What I'm trying to say is that I know that this is right - this 'you and me.' I want it. I want /you/. I don't say this lightly, Duo. I want to give myself to you. All of me. I want to make love to you." Duo took one hand in his, noticing that Heero was trembling slightly. "Heero, I - this is the most amazing thing that's happened to me. I've spent years looking for someone I could feel right about, someone I wanted to share my life with. I won't lie to you. I've had quite a few dates, and more than one or two boyfriends. Sex was involved a couple of times, but I learned that sex wasn't what I wanted. Oh, it feels good," Duo hurried to say when he saw Heero's eyes falter, "but it's not the main thing - can't be the main thing for me. I have to know that the person is the right one for me before I'll give my body to him. That's the main reason my last three relationships ended before they got started. Shit. Now /I'm/ messing up." Heero sat silently while Duo gathered his thoughts. "I - I really want to get this right, Heero." "You will," Heero said quickly. "But we should go slow." Duo looked away, then looked back. "Can I ask if - if you've -" "No, I haven't. I never thought I would. But I'm as certain of this as anything in my life, Duo. I trust you. I /love/ you! And I want to give myself to you." Duo sat humbled by his new love's words. He brought one hand up to trace Heero's jaw line. "I didn't dare to hope for this, Heero, to believe that you would return my feelings." "I do. So let me -" Duo put two fingers to Heero's lips. "We will, Heero, we will. I promise. But not tonight." Heero's eyebrows bunched over his nose. He pulled his hand away from Duo's and looked away. "No, no, no, love, I didn't mean -" Duo reached for Heero's hand again. "It's okay, it's okay...don't do this, Heero. Hey, I /love/ you. And I want this, too. Okay? But - I don't know what the right words are - I just want it to be right when we do it, okay? I don't want it to be something we do when we're drunk on passion. I don't want us to rush." He paused. Heero looked back at him. "Okay?" "You want me, don't you?" "Of course. God, yes I want you!" "Then -" "Come here, love." Duo pulled him into an embrace. "I want to make sure you know it's /you/ I want, not just your body." "I know that, Duo." "Good." They kissed, Heero's mouth open and willing, Duo's lips pressing lightly, then with more insistence. Heero's tongue hesitantly touched Duo's as it entered his mouth. He gasped as new sensations rushed through him. Duo's hands came up to lightly embrace Heero's face. He turned Heero's head to the side and kissed his way down his neck. They smiled at each other as Duo looked up at Heero.
Heero rose halfway and moved his legs under him on the couch, leaning
in to Duo as he did. As he lost his balance, his hands went out to
steady himself. Duo grabbed Heero's wrists and fell backward on the
sofa, his head thumping lightly against the padding on the arm. Heero
moved his arms to either side of Duo and leaned down to kiss him again.
Duo put his hands on Heero's hips, sliding them up to the back of
his neck. He pulled himself up to Heero, who suddenly had too much
weight on his arms, which bent at the elbows. Heero fell forward,
Duo fell backward, raising his head to let Heero's "Hmm..." Heero said after the laughter subsided. "I can hear your heart beating. It's fast." "No wonder. I'm in the arms of the man I've wanted for weeks." "Really?" "Yeah, stupid." Duo grinned as he spoke. "Kiss me again." Duo complied. * * * Several long kisses later, Heero was under Duo, his shirt tail out, the top three buttons of his shirt undone. His hands were in his new love's hair as Duo teased his neck and chest with his lips and tongue. Heero alternatively trembled and gasped, mewled and hissed. Duo found a nipple and tickled it with his tongue. Heero arched his back. He slid his hands to Duo's chest and began unbuttoning his shirt, but Duo's work on his torso prevented him from getting very far. Duo worked the last buttons of Heero's shirt free and traced a line from sternum to navel with his tongue, eliciting ripples across Heero's stomach. Duo kissed the flat belly, delving lower with his lips. When he came to the edge of Heero's pants, he looked up. "God, Duo, don't stop!" "Heero, I -" Heero raised his head to look down his torso to Duo's face. "Do you want me?" "God, yes, Heero." "Then take me. I'm giving myself to you." Something in Heero's eyes told Duo that Heero was right; that this was something he had thought about, and something he wanted. Duo smiled as he reached for Heero's belt and slowly undid it. "You have to trust me, Heero." "I do." "Then prepare to have your mind blown." And other body parts, Duo added to himself. Duo pulled the snap on Heero's pants free, then slowly unzipped them. He was greeted with white cotton briefs, already wet over the tip of Heero's cock, which pushed up in the center. Duo ran a finger from the base to the head of the penis, swirling the tip against the wet fabric. Heero shuddered and gasped at the touch. "Unnh, nggh..." Duo cradled Heero's balls in his hand, gently massaging them, eliciting more animalistic noises from his lover. He flipped the waistband of the briefs down, revealing the swollen tip of Heero's penis. He bent over it and licked it, his tongue moving back and forth over sensitive nerve endings. Heero grabbed his head with both hands. More guttural noises. "Du-oooh!" Duo slowly rolled the briefs down, revealing Heero's cock. It wasn't overly large, but well proportioned. It sprang up a bit, precum from the tip dripping to the soft brown hair below it. When the briefs were rolled down to the top of Heero's balls, Duo leaned over and began to lave his tongue up and down the length of Heero's member. "Aaah, Duo, oh Duo!" "It gets better, love." "Ca-an't, can't pos-sibly!" Duo smiled and bent to his work again. After licking every part of his lover's cock, Duo slid his hands under Heero's hips, raising him up. He pulled Heero's pants and briefs down, pushing them to his knees. He leaned in and took one of Heero's balls in his mouth, gently rolling it around with his tongue. Heero's legs stiffened, his arms shot out from his body. Duo released the ball and took the other one, giving it the same treatment, then began to lick up the length of Heero's dick. When he reached the head, he pulled it into the air with his hand at the base, and took the head into his mouth. He swirled his tongue around the tip and then plunged downward, relaxing his throat. When he reached the base of the cock, he constricted his throat and put his hands on Heero's hips to keep him from thrusting. Heero shivered and cried out in a low voice. After stroking Heero's cock with his lips just a few times, Duo released his hold on his lover, who moaned pitifully at the loss. He stood up and leaned over to kiss Heero, hovering over his lips and said, "I'll be back; stay right where you are." Heero moaned, his head back on the couch, his eyes closed. Duo returned in just a moment, armed with a tube of petroleum jelly. He smeared some on his fingers and knelt beside the couch. "Heero, keep your eyes closed. I'm going to do something good to you. "O-o-k-kay." Duo put his free hand on the back of Heero's thigh and pushed, bringing his knees up. He reached between Heero's legs pulled his pants and briefs down to his ankles, then spread his cheeks. He brought his jellied fingers to Heero's anus, massaging gently around the ring of muscle there. "C-cold." "It'll warm up, lover. Trust me. This will feel good, though it may be tense at first." "Okay." Duo very slowly worked one finger into Heero's passage. When he felt Heero tense, he told him to relax. "Push down, as though you're having a bowel movement." Heero did, and Duo's finger slid in quickly. He waited for Heero to adjust to the intrusion, then began to move his finger in circles, slowly widening the circumference. Instead of adding a finger, he pushed deeper, searching for Heero's sweet spot. "Just relax, Heero, I won't hurt you." Heero pushed a little, Duo pushed a little, and then all of Duo's finger was inside of his lover. He crooked it a bit, and found what he was looking for. "God, oh, God! Du-Duo, Duo!" Heero writhed from side to side on the couch. "Feels good, huh?" "Ye-ess! Oh!" Duo prodded Heero's prostate in quick bursts, followed by short rests, then withdrew his finger. Heero whined at the loss. "Trust me, Heero. I want this to be good for you." "Y-you, too." "Don't worry about me. I'll feel good, too." Duo pulled at his belt, then his pants, shoving them and his boxers down to his ankles. He added a bit more jelly to his fingers and then began to prep himself, inserting one finger, stretching himself, then two. He looked down on the sight before him: Heero was stretched out on the couch, his shirt unbuttoned and pushed away from his chest, his pants and briefs pushed down to his ankles. His cock was fully erect and twitching, dripping precum, which had begun to pool in a spot below his navel. With two fingers inside himself, Duo reached over with his other hand and scooped some of the precum from Heero's belly on his fingers, then popped them into his mouth. "Lover, you taste good." "I wanna taste you, too." "Be patient, Heero, you will." Duo added a third finger and began to move them around, pushing against the walls of his passage, stretching, relaxing. When he was ready, he withdrew his fingers and spoke to Heero. "Heero? I'm going to get on the couch with you. You'll need to move over just a bit." Heero opened his eyes and saw Duo climbing onto the couch. "Just slide your hips that way - that's it, that's perfect." Duo placed one knee on either side of Heero's hips. "Now hold your cock up straight." Duo positioned himself over Heero's cock and felt beneath him for Heero's hand. "Push gently," he said to his lover. Heero surged forward as Duo dropped down, willing himself to relax as he did. Heero's cock slid easily into Duo's passage. Duo continued downward until he felt his balls touch Heero's wet belly. "God, that feels incredible!" "Hold still for a moment." Heartbeats passed. "Now push up, gently. Now hold that position." Duo began to push up then drop down, slowly at first, then with increasing frequency. Heero found it hard not to thrust, but did his best to hold the position Duo had given him. He put his hands on Duo's hips; Duo grabbed Heero's wrists. At last Heero could not restrain himself, and began to pump up and down, his upstroke coming against Duo's down stroke. Heero connected with Duo's prostrate, causing Duo to shudder with delight. Both men made keening sounds. The tempo increased. The delicious pressure in Heero's groin began to coil tighter, tighter, until he screamed as his semen shot into Duo's tight, hot channel. "God, Duo, oh Duo, Duo!" Heero shuddered, he pressed his head back into the couch, his hips high in the air. Duo pressed down against his lover's groin. He squeezed with his sphincter over and over again, attempting to give Heero the most pleasure possible. When Heero's trembling subsided, Duo slowly pushed up, releasing his lover's cock to the air. Heero whined at the loss, but kept his eyes closed. As Duo pushed off of the couch, he felt Heero's cum trailing down the back of his thigh. He reached there and brought some of the nectar to his lips, licking them languidly. He kneeled beside the couch and reached for the wet washrag he had brought with him when he went for the petroleum jelly and cleaned himself. Duo sat back on his haunches and grabbed his neglected cock, closing his eyes, massaging the tip, and groaning in the back of his throat. When Heero heard this, he opened his eyes and saw what Duo was doing. "Don't." Duo opened his eyes. "Let me." Heero leaned up on one elbow and put a hand on Duo's arm. He pushed into a sitting position and moved to the floor between the couch and coffee table. He reverently took Duo's hand from his cock and looked into his lover's eyes, his lips forming a tiny smile. "Lean back." Duo pulled his legs from under him and stretched them out on either side of Heero's, then grabbed a throw pillow from the couch and put it behind his head, lowering his upper body to the floor. Heero bent over Duo and kissed his cock on the head, causing Duo to shudder. His need was strong, his penis aching with desire. "I've never done this before." "Don' worry," Duo said, his words rasping, "you'll - " Duo never finished his sentence, for Heero had taken him into his mouth, all the way, and had begun to suck, slowly at first, then more roughly. He pumped his head up and down on Duo, the head of Duo's cock tapping, tapping against the back of Heero's throat. Only a few strokes later Duo came hard into his lover's mouth. When Duo's cum rushed into Heero's throat, he swallowed on reflex, then continued to suck Duo, slowing his pace. "God, Heero, you're a natural!" Heero sat up. "I learned how to relax my throat from my qigong[1] exercises. It was good?" "Hell yes!" Heero smiled shyly. "It was /very/ good!" * * * When Heero woke there was a gray light seeping through the bottom of the window beneath the shade. He blinked, then turned his head and realized he was in bed with Duo. After their escapades on and off the couch, they had
both cleaned up in the washroom. Duo had insisted on a shower together,
promising Heero that it would be an erotic experience. He wound his
braid into a ball at the neck, fastening it with chopsticks, then
took Heero into the bath where he undressed him slowly. He led him
into the shower where a languid soaping and rinsing took a full twenty
minutes - including Heero being jacked off by Duo. By the time Duo
had found jamas for both of them, Heero was buzzy with delight, and
quite sleepy. Duo had tucked them both into soft sheets and a warm
blanket, wrapping his arms around Heero and He felt Duo's soft breath at the back of his neck and smiled. He twitched his leg and felt Duo's hand against his hip. God, but this feels incredible, he thought. How could I ever have thought I wanted to be alone for the rest of my life? * * * Breakfast was simple: toast with marmalade, juice, coffee. They sat across from each other at the small table Duo kept in the kitchen, reaching for the jam at the same time, or the carton of juice, any excuse for a chance to touch. Heero ran fingers through bangs, smiling at Duo. "Amazing." "What?" "You." Duo smiled. "You, too." Heero blushed. "Heero," Duo said, his tone becoming serious, "I didn't plan for last night to go the way it did." "I know. But I'm glad it did." He saw the look on Duo's face and added, "Really." He reached for Duo's hand, pausing for a moment. "What are you afraid of?" Duo paused, then drew a loud breath before speaking. "I'm afraid of going too fast, of scaring you off, of - of spoiling the very thing I've wanted for so long, of -" "Duo?" Heero smiled softly. "I understand that you've been through a lot of relationships that didn't get off the ground, or went sour quickly. I can imagine that setting you up to expect more of the same. But I'm not more of the same." "Amen to that!" Heero smiled, then grew serious. "I don't know about you, Duo, but I honestly believe I've found the one I want to spend my life with." Duo smiled, but there was caution in the look he gave Heero. "Heero..." his sentence trailed off before it really began. He drew breath and sighed. "Listen, I know you've got to be tired of me saying this, but I don't want either of us to make a commitment until we're sure." "I'm sure. Aren't you?" "Heero -" "Or did last night not mean what I thought it did?" "Heero, listen. I love you. I cannot imagine being with anyone else. I've been through enough relationships to know that this one is different. I hope that it can become permanent. I want you to be the one for me, too. But -" Heero put up his hand, stopping Duo from continuing. "Do you think that because I haven't been in many relationships - make that almost no relationships - that I don't know what I'm doing?" Duo stared blankly at Heero. "Well, I haven't been in any relationships, unless you count a couple of close friendships that never went beyond fondness for each other. But I /have/ spent a lot of time thinking about them. I guess I haven't been in any relationships because I haven't found the right person to be involved with - until now. "Duo Maxwell, I love you. I've spent the past few weeks getting to know you, and coming to love you. This is not love at first sight. It's not love at first sex, either. It's love at six weeks, or however long we've been seeing each other. I've always run from those who wanted to move beyond friendship with me. You're the first person who's tried to get close to me that felt right, who I wanted to get close to. Do you understand? You're not going to hurt me, or take advantage of me. Duo, I love you!" Heero finished what he had to say and sat looking at Duo, whose mouth had dropped open. After several seconds, Duo closed his mouth and continued to look at Heero with an unreadable _expression on his face. Heero waited, then raised his eyebrows. Duo spoke. "Heero, you're more than I could ever want or expect in a lover." He swallowed and looked down. "You're right; I don't want to hurt you or take advantage of you. I guess I need -" Duo closed his eyes and then looked up. "Can you accept the fact that this isn't easy for me? I mean, I broke every rule I have last night, and I - If I -" Heero continued to look at Duo as he started and left unfinished sentence after sentence. He smiled at Duo. "I just need to trust you. That's it, isn't it?" Heero nodded. His smile grew bigger. "But what if - if -" Heero put his index finger to his lips, then took Duo's hand in his. "Duo, if you love me, and I love you, and we both want this, and we both will go into this with our eyes open...well, I don't see how we can make a mistake. I trust you. You trust me. If you need to hear me say that you not making a long-term commitment is okay, well, it is. I don't want that, either. We need to live with each other for a while before either of us know if that's right. But we /can/ make a commitment to get to know each other, and to love each other in the process. Hey, there are probably a dozen things wrong with what I just said. But we can work it out as we go along. Can't we?" Duo smiled, then sighed. "You're something else, Heero Yuy, you know that?" "Well, you're pretty amazing yourself, Duo Maxwell." Duo raised his coffee cup, Heero his glass of juice. They clinked together. "Here's to us," Duo said with a smile. "Yeah," Heero said. Here's to us." Owari [1] Qigong (Chee-kung) is the ancient Chinese art of energy manipulation for the purposes of healing and well being.
|
